2024 ten years of the pursuit of my dream. I accomplished getting my first novel published. It was a painful process. I learned that if you don't get a book deal then it's probably going to be moreso to your advantage to Self Publish. I gave up a lot to get to where I am and some days it all seems like it was for nothing. My novel didn't become the number one best seller on the New York Times best seller list like I was hoping it would. So now the focus is to make it into a Major Motion Picture that's deemed Oscar Worthy. 

Hey If I don't think big who else will. Hence the picture on the side here of the anchor that seems to have dragged alot of other items along the way. I can honestly say through out my process. I never factored in the absolute fact that Time doesn't stop and getting older presented a whole new set of other challenges. I have been on this journey for 18 years now. What's worse is I can't put all of the time on God. I have made costly mistakes along the way. 

When you walk with God by faith their are things we have to do and living holy is number 1 on the list. Holiness without shall no man see God. That's in the natural and spiritual. I was in prayer one day and I asked the Lord about Faith because it seemed like my faith wasn't the faith the word of God was talking about. I asked the Lord Jesus how did he perceive faith. He said' Faith is Following After Impossibilities Through Holiness. He said' people will follow after the impossibilities but get tripped up when it comes to Holiness. A former Bishop of the ministry where I was born again would say often either we are in a test, going through a test or coming out of a test and I can honestly say I have had to repeat some tests. Just like it is in the natural it is in the spirit. If you fail a test you will repeat it. I started my wilderness experience at the age of 40. I was 48 when I lost my Mother who was my best friend to small cell lung cancer and I moved to California to continue to pursue this dream that has eluded me for these long years. I am now 58 and I have to watch my blood pressure and what I eat and mental health. 

I believe that scripture that says if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed you can say to this mountain be thou removed and be thou cast into the sea, is talking about those of us who have had great faith and when it's all said and done our faith is diminished to the size of a mustard seed. So it's not that you start out with a grain of faith as a mustard seed but as long as you still have a grain of faith left you can still move mountains. Lord help me. 

Any one over the age of 50 please take care of yourselves and take vitamins if you don't eat right and if you don't eat right then you should start and exercise as much as possible. I take vitamin, D, E, B12, Zinc, Niacin to reduce ringing ears. I also take a cap full of Olive oil into my coffee and one more thing I think needs to be added. I never take these pills separately. I add them into my coffee along with my high blood pressure pills. 

If you have high blood pressure or know someone who has it and is taking at least two meds. leave me a message on my contact me page so I can refer you to a study that will pay you for your time and travel.  Have a blessed day everyone and stay safe.